Moshe had a strong desire to help his Hebrew brothers. He felt identified with them much more than with the Egyptian royal house. This was from the Eternal who created him to be the deliverer of the people of Israel. However, the time for the people's deliverance was not ripe yet. Moshe did all he could with his youth's strength to help his people, but his attempt was a complete failure. In his anger, he killed an Egyptian and that wasn't the way to free the people. The people of Israel didn't acknowledge him as their deliverer, in spite of the fact that the Eternal had called him to be that. The reason of the failure was because it wasn't time yet and because he used his own strength instead of working with the Eternal.

Moshe had a lot to learn. His character wasn't prepared for enduring the people's complaints in the desert. He also was too self-confident. He hadn't learned to walk in the time of the Eternal or working with Him. He needed many years in the desert training to become the deliverer of the people of Israel.

Moshe thought that he could commit murder and get away with it. He hid the body in the sand, but can sin be hidden? For how long?

Maybe it's possible to hide many sins from the eyes of men but not from the eyes of the One who sees it all, even the heart's motivation. Sooner or later, all things that men hide will come to light, as well as all works that have been done in the dark. There is nothing hidden before the Heavenly Court before whom one day, every single person will have to account for his/her deeds.

Besides, in order to be a public character, acknowledged by the people, one has to live his private life as if it were public. A heaven-approved leader cannot go around hiding his sins; they will come to light sooner or later. And so it was that Moshe's sin came to Pharaoh's ears and he tried to kill him.

"He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy."

(Prov. 28:13 NIVUK)

May you be strong and blessed,

Ketriel